Tonload of questions

LAST TIMES…
1. Last beverage: Milk
2. Last phone call: Mom
3. Last text message: David, lab mate.
4. Last song you listened to: Payaliya (DEV D)
5. Last time you cried: 3 years back..

HAVE YOU EVER...

6. Dated someone twice: Nope..
7. Been cheated on? : No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? :No
9. Lost someone special? No...
10. Been depressed? : 6/10 scale yes..
11. Been drunk and threw up?.. Not quite, but close

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:

12. Royal Blue
13. Yellow
14. Grey
15. Red

FIRSTS :
16. Made new friends: Junior Kg.
17. Fallen out of love: No
18. Laughed until you cried: Tonnes of times!!!
19. Met someone who changed you: yes, to some extent
20. Found out who your true friends were: yes , learnt it the hard way.
21. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes...I hate tht part.

HAVE YOU:

22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: No
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 90%
24. How many kids do you want to have: Not thought/ dnt wanna think yet.
25. Do you have any pets: No
26. Do you want to change your name: Yes, Pappu might suit better :P
27. What did you do for your last birthday: Highway surprise bash
28.What time did you wake up today: 8 38 a.m..thts whn my 4th alarm rings..
29. What were you doing at midnight last night: strolling on the beach
30. Name something you CANNOT wait for : buy a car+ go back home!
31. Last time you saw your father: last september .. gosh its been 9 mnths already!
32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: FML
33. Most visited web page: Gmail/ CNN/Times of INDIA/ Facebook/Orkut

WHAT'S YOUR :

34. Name: Secret
35. Nicknames: Zubs, ZK(ZeeKay)
36. Zodiac sign: Aries.
37. Male or female or transgender : Male
38. Elementary: Vivekanand
39. Colleges: UICT
40. Hair color: Black
41. Long or short: Men's Medium
42. Height: 174 cm (5-8)
43. Do you have a crush on someone? Think so..not a strong one though..just the fleeting ones.
44. Ever been in love? Dnt understand what "love" is
45. Piercings? No
46. Tattoos? No
47. Righty or lefty: Lefty.......
48. First surgery: Eye Surgery at age of 7..eye injury
49. First piercing: Redundant question
50. First best friend: BD
51. First sport you loved: cricket, table tennis
52. First pet : Redundant Q
53. First vacation: Delhi/Agra
54. First concert: Lucky Ali
55. First crush : P
56. Eating: Choc Chip Muffin
57. Drinking: Mango Juice
58. I'm about to: say F it and go to sleep
59. Listening to: Say it Right (Nelly Furtado)
60. Waiting for: Evening

YOUR FUTURE

61. Want kids? Yes
62. Want to get married? Yes
63. Careers in mind? Research Analyst, Process Engineer, Entrepreneur

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?

64. Lips or eyes: Both
65. Hugs or kisses: ? Both :P
66. Shorter or taller: Just about my height, +- few cms.
67. Older or Younger: +2 -5
68. Romantic or spontaneous: Both!
69. Nice stomach or nice arms: Zero Figure :P
70. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
71. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship
72. Trouble maker or hesitant: Mix of both

HAVE YOU EVER :
73. Kissed a stranger: Almost :P
74. Lost glasses/contacts: No, but broke them
76. Broken some one's heart: Dont think so
77. Had your own heart broken: Not the cliche way, but have been hurt and angry
78. Been arrested: No, but got searched on suspicion
79. Turned someone down: No ( I dont call the shots here)
80. Cried when someone died: Yes, but seeing my mom cry.
81. Liked a friend that is a girl? Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

81. Yourself: Yes, but not as much as I should
82. Miracles: Yes! Need some more..
83. God: Yes
84. Love at first sight: Not exactly.., but creates a big impression
85. Heaven: No...
86. Santa Claus: No
87. Kiss on the first date? depends if I get the signal :P
88. Angels: Not the literary ones, but I see angels all around
89. Devils: See those too, and sometime difficult to distinguish between angels and devils

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

90. Is there one person you want to be with right now? Don't Know..yes I guess
91. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
92. Wanted to kill someone ever? Wanted to knock the person down
93. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss? Well well..you think you are gonna get answers
94. Committed a blunder and regretted later? Yes hundreds of times :)
95. Wanted to steal you friend's boyfriend / girlfriend? : Just for a moment, but morals took over.

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR :

96. White: Shirt/Tshirt
97. Black: Jeans
98. Red: T shirt
99. Pink: Er..
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? Yes. :)

We dont want no Thoughts Control??

My background is in engineering and Separation Processes in production of all chemicals can be considered to be my specialty. So , I was thinking of Separation Processes in daily life. How I wish I had some filtration device for my mind. Just take out/separate thoughts or people that you don't want or deserve your mindspace and dump them outside. Can thoughts be controlled? Is it possible to pinpoint just relevant thoughts, possible to change the frequency of stray thoughts? That certainly would be a great subject of research. Yogis have been known to master this art by meditating. So what exactly are they doing technically? Are they steering their thoughts in such a way that blood flow reaches just one particular region of brain and other regions face subdued activity? How can you block out impulses to certain regions of the brain though? I am really curious about their art/skill now. When doctors/scientists try to explain miracles, some strong believers rubbish them saying that man is too low a being to explain supernatural phenomena. But weren't the yogis exceeding that limit too? By not just being able to fathom the deep secrets, but by using them and having the power to tweak thoughts? Why doesn't anyone blame them..?

Mysterious Blogger!

Why is psuedo name or "blog name" so popular in blogsphere?Is the sexy and mysterious appeal the common motive or are there deeper reasons? You want people to care only about your writing and not as a person...or are you afraid people will judge you in daily life based on your blog entries?
Are psuedonom bloggers afraid of the impression they create? Or you don't want any baggage from blogging to stalk you into your real life? Does that mean your real persona is different from you literary one? Do they want people to know about their life only through what they write and want no one to do any background check (read Google) on them?.
There is definitely some issue of credit in here. And it is ironic that the best creative blogs I know of are by "pen name" bloggers and the most shameful directly lifted one I read.the writer/s had no issue whatsoever in making their names public and infact publicise their blog with zest.

World's Largest democratic exercise!

Today's Youth are passionate about their team/players.
We see the passion in their support for Manchester Utd vs Arsenal or vice versa.
Its reflected in IPL- Mumbai Indians vs Delhi Daredevils.
Again comes forward in Federer vs Nadal.

Where is that passion when it comes to the national politics. Why are there no status messages saying Go Congress or Go BJP? Why the absolute indifference over the government that can decide your fate? You cannot control who plays for Arsenal and who wins the IPL. But YOU have the right to select the national leaders. Use your POWER. Ignorance is no longer BLISS!
We need to show the world that we are an informed set of people who are motivated enough to change things.

"Physical"/mental torture

I was at this party the other day. I am usually not the party type but I was forced to go to this one by a good friend I couldn't refuse. So I'm there sitting on this couch just fiddling with a glass of low quality beer I couldn't finish off, when this drunk girl comes and sits besides me. I was bored so just thought of starting a normal conversation. I introduced myself and to my surprise, she said she wasn't interested. She had a strong East European accent. I was pissed by her arrogant response. I was the only sober guy behaving myself in the party and I get this. So I asked her what and why she was not interested in to pique her further. She said "Your physics is not good" . I was taken aback. What the peep was she talking about? How can she possibly know about my physics and I usually boast of a good working knowledge of physics -it must be atleast few times better than this drunk rude bitch. So I responded in an agitated tone,"What physics are you talking about?" -She said--"Body..Body--You are slim." Then it dawned upon me that she was referring to physique. But still, I may not have the Sylvester Stallone body, but I was definitely not "slim". Average is acceptable. But "slim?" Slim is for girls. I left the party in anger and came back and did 10 push-ups, followed by flexing of muscles against the mirror.
Take that , bitch!.. I was contemplating hitting the gym next morning..Was it a wake-up call?What happened to the good old lean look? Are only bulky guys in vogue? --> But then, sense prevailed and I siad..F*.. it. Its all good.

Moral of the story...(1)..When in Rome, do as the Romans do..( No she was not from Italy, also Rome is not in East Europe..also Rome is not a city in California) in the sense that when you go to a party, drink ..like everyone else does...till you are in so little sense that no words or actions move you a millimetre! (2) Don't fall in to the "large guy" fetish of strange drunk white girls. Lean is in! No need to bulk up!

Zindagi kaisi ye paheli

**Is ego very different than self-respect? where is the thin line between them? Why can't I decipher that thin line?
That is the challenge one faces-to have the highest degree of self-respect without bordering in the ego zone. I don't know my exact location today, but I believe I am in the self-respect zone. Please direct me back if I have trickled down the metastable zone.

** Can memories cause a change of interests/hobbies? Perhaps, it can. I don;t understand it well but maybe the sub-conscious makes efforts to detach with memories that hurt. I think that is an interesting topic for psychological research and I am ready to volunteer as a subject if anyone is willing to carry out research in this field :)

^^ Does one mature a lot after 23? :P . I personally think I have exponentially. But then, maybe its a function of circumstances too.

I will have to end this thoroughly boring and lousy post now at this point. I need to get out of the writer's block, (and fight the subconscious tending to oppose) . I need to get one post out, and not let this one join the 20-something drafts that never saw the light of the day.

Double Dichotomy

Strange are the ways of life!
One incident I wish to forget desperately, but can't erase it from my mind. Infiltrates my mind and I have no defence, no internal security. It keeps things away from normal.

And another of a more general nature, which I strongly wish I don't forget, lest things get back to normal

These two incidents define very much the daily proceedings now, both burning in me a fire. A fire which needs direction. A fire which has to be made use of; an energy that cannot be let wasted.